sixty cigarettes

did audrey's hair for a shoot with kriskidd. makeup by tori, behind the scene photos courtesy of moi.shooting with these people make my life ♥

"no fucking bucking"

fell in love with this editorial xo

this is jacquelyne sipping on her first drink being twenty-one. last night we all had dinner at the cheesecake factory then to her apartment which turned into a guitar circle sing along, drinkfest, dancing and dress up extravaganza! after dinner, jacquelyne, her friend steena and i made a run to starbucks and one of the barista's said that we looked like neopolitan. jacquelyne is strawberry, steena is chocolate, and i'm vanilla! i thought it was pretty funny, not to mention i'm quite fond of neopolitan ice cream and shakes from in-n-out.

its currently 4:03 am and my floor is completely covered in studs and spikes, working on a pair of heels and a motorcycle vest. i really need to stop staying up so late and get some shut eye buti'll post photos of them when i'm done so stay tuned loves! hope you all have a lovely wednesday!

xo

"visual forms are not perceived differently from colors or brightness. They are sense qualities, and the visual character of geometry consists in these sense qualities"

i'm in love with sublet's sustainable, pretty dresses and tunics.big fan of mute colors and plaid :]

i'm in love with sublet's sustainable, pretty dresses and tunics.big fan of mute colors and plaid :]

check out more from here: http://www.subletclothing.com

Eunsuk Hur is an amazing textile designer who graduated this yeah from the prestegious Saint Martins School for Art and Design. She creates beautiful, architechual fashion and interior design pieces that are put together with playful experimentation but still manages to be wearable and provide durability. i'm definitely in love with this.

check out her "nomdaic wonderland" collection and more here: http://www.eunsukhur.com

"grow up quick, not too quick. quick enough to hear it pass you. smile heavy. youth is something earned, something learned, backseats of cars, and dead grass beneath dying stars. you're never old enough, never young enough. and those monkey bars you used to reach for, now bruise your shoulders when you pass them. big black bruises like big black spiders, legs stretched out, smashed deep into shag carpet with a rolled up newspaper. its pages detailing the chronicles of missing children who never got the chance to grow up. to experience this blur of love and lust, and feeling infinite at 2 am on a Saturday night when everything is so fucking clear. maybe its a Sunday morning? we don't need to know. we don't go to church. Jesus loves you. Ask any drug dealer, any homeless man with a family he can't feed. Ask any prostitute who came to this city as a young girl with Hollywood dreams. ask me. ask me."

"People keep telling me that I fall in love too easily- that I should protect my heart, that I shouldn’t wear my heart on my sleeve… I fall in love at least 20 times a day. I fall in love with the sky and the sun and the flowers and the children. I fall in love with smiles, with music on the radio and with french fries and Dr. Pepper. I fall in love with the sound of laughter, blue jeans, accents… Sometimes I fall in love with complete strangers, especially the ones holding hands and kissing in public. The ones who aren’t afraid to be in love with the idea of being in love either. I don’t mind the pain of unrequited love so much, because I think they’re wrong. Love looks good on me."

CHANNELING: Post midnight boredom, MAC Fresh Brew Lipstick, heavy eyes in the works, and Billie Holiday on repeat.

i hope you know that i'm the happiest boy alive. 

i'm extremely tired and seriously every single part of my body hurts. shot with marc mez saturday. we shot a lot of pictures and made the most ridiculous videos with tori, klariza, and kris. so they should all me up sometime this week. i'm dying to use my new camera but i'm still waiting for my package with the charger to come in. damn ups.

and this is seriously the cutest picture i've ever seen!

i want a maltese so bad! and i miss spencer so much. i love you baby, sixteen more days♥

i uploaded another picture from the shoot with kris kidd. oh! and my photos were featured on http://radiantjungle.com so make sure to check that out. my hands are all pruney from trying to get all of the hair color off my hands from this afternoon. doing highlights is definitely not my favorite.

photo by dikmai

a cool cab driver once said something to me that i pass to all of you, "today, you are the boss!"

stay golden♥

once again, i'm back from hiatus from this website. i rarley ever update anything ,even on myspace but i promise i will start up again. and if you catch me slacking you can yell at me! haha not really, but you know what i mean.

so i've been attending toni & guy hairdressing academy in santa monica, ca since september 2008 and i graduate in about two months. school pretty much runs my life and i rarely ever go out but it's alright, i love to learn it keeps me busy. plus i love to do hair so i'm actually doing hands on work rather than sitting in class listening to lectures all day. :P

i'm trying to book more shoots, and it's difficult becuase my availability is only on sundays and mondays. whaack, thanks school! but i did a shoot this past sunday with kris kidd, and the photos turned out great! tori did my makeup and the whole concept was thought up just hours before the shoot, haha!

i felt like a military geisha, haha! but i'm really happy how they came out. there should be more soon, i'll keep you posted.

tori and i had to rush back home and get all dolled up for the <b>daisy of love</b>premiere party in hollyhood. we only stayed less than an hour because it was so crowded and ended up at cinespace. there was a lot free drinks and running back and forth from one room to another haha! it was lovely seeing <b>edie</b> and </b>miss hanna b.</b> there, i missed them. but my night was pretty good, i just couldn't wait to crawl into bed and passout. i always look foward to sleeping in, don't you?

i'm meeting up with<b>brett</b> in an hour and i still have to get ready so i better scurry. ;]

&hearts; stay golden

my new year's resolution is to never stop loving you. (you know who you are)

so this year, i have a lot of exciting plans and projects i'm working on. one of them is a photobook documentary that my friend adam and i are working on, can't give out anymroe details but we have one video up, check it: http://vimeo.com/2462118

video/photoshoot in downtown la on adam's rooftop. keep checking for more videos. ;]

Lately things have been okay. People keep asking if I’m alright, and I never know what to say. If by okay you mean, I’m dealing; then yes. If you mean I’m getting out of bed, eating my meals, and laughing every now & then. It’s sort of a routine. And I guess in time, I’ll be able to think and still keep an appetite. With time, my heart won’t hurt so bad. And at the end of the night, yeah I let myself cry, but never for too long. I know deep down that things will get better. I don’t know anymore. I’ve been torn apart, and putting myself back together is the most exciting, painful, and confusing experience. I swear one day I’ll get things right.

"don't attach yourself to anyone who shows you the least bit of attention because you're lonely. loneliness is the human condition, no one is ever going to fill that space. the best you can do is know yourself...know what you want."